Monday, October 25, 2010

realization for the day...

sometimes we confuse and stress ourselves with two or too many choices and decisions to make... and then we end up having and doing none... or am i the only one? ... tsk tsk
- back to reality now -

Saturday, September 11, 2010

the third task

Task for today (actually it was given yesterday):

- 5 entertaining but informative articles about a certain tablet that helps treat an…oh well a sexual problem; and another

- 5 entertaining but informative articles about a specific appetite suppressant

Whew... this is a real challenge for someone who knows not much about the male world and someone who has not been really successful in slimming down. :)


Okay, so I probably should have started doing the task today but I ended up wanting to write how this freelance day feels like. I’m like online for hours already just staring into facts and testimonials and glancing once in a while to my blank page.


It is indeed a challenging task. I have gotten over the risk and uneasiness of my first few articles and have somehow passed the test for my “employer” but today is like the beginning where you don’t know how to start.


And my little sister who’s way smarter than me (uhhmm yeah I think I’m smart haha) is not feeling well for days now and my other smarter elder sister is also doing loads of nursing duties so I have no support group for now.


But since I chose to accept the challenges, I know I can do this. It feels fun though once you're almost finish doing an article :) especially when you get paid for it. You guys should try freelance writing.


After several hours after cooking, eating, bathing and cleaning...


I’ve finally have written a 65-word introduction. Well that’s a good start, right?

I should stop doing this other blogs now. :) ‘Til next…

Monday, September 6, 2010

my pineapple pleasure


One thing I really don't like about is flying home or somewhere else alone – you do not have someone to talk to and kill the time. I easily get intimidated by other passengers I do not know. Good thing the airport has a few good food stalls for you to chill your waiting time.


Most of my “alone” flights, I just go directly and bore myself out in the waiting area. Or always at the Coffee Dream for a coffee treat but sometimes ordering something I’m not really in the mood to drink but it so happen it’s the only place conducive for me to stay and not be around so many people.


But on Saturday, I see from afar that I would not be comfortable there sitting at the only table that is beside passengers I know I’d get intimidated (here I go again). So I ended up staying at Fruit Magic because I saw the dainty soft chairs and glass table – and there were not too many occupants. Then I scanned the menu for the most eye-catching drink for my day.


And the winner is… Pineapple Pleasure. So I ordered that thinking “let’s see how pleasurable that really is”. And to my surprise, I was not disappointed. It was really a heavenly mix of the pineapple, mango, banana and strawberry. I thought it was more of the pineapple and banana taste but when you sip more, your mind changes – haha – and then you sip again and confuse your mind. It was so amazing that I promised myself to blog about it so here I am.


Sad thing I didn’t had the guts to take pictures of it because I was being conscious at people probably looking at me. But now I am regretting that fact. This could have been more convincing with real images.


But never mind, I can always just go and buy again my precious Pineapple Pleasure. A pure pleasure inside a smoothie cup. :)


Friday, July 30, 2010

a sad post (because i am sad today)

Too many decisions…

There were too many decisions in the past (and the present) that keeps hunting me.

And with this particular decision I’ve made… it keeps making me cry.

I was never a good friend, was I?

Until now I keep thinking if that decision ended our friendship… or was it never there. Or was I the one who went away and kept the relationship simple, distant... not minding.

Because I was too afraid to be swayed… I was too afraid to make a decision about my life…. like I am until now. And that maybe you thought that me making that decision was me ending our friendship.

You’re one of my bests and I wanted to keep you… but that decision must have contradicted to that.

I wanted to keep you close but I keep thinking too much of just having the friendship grow and never wanted to do what you wanted to do to make your life better… to make our lives better.

And now I keep thinking maybe I really deserve what I really feel right now.

And then I have to make a decision again, to just let this go…

I’m sorry.

And I still hope we have those special places in our hearts.

I hope you understood me as I do understand you.

And congratulations because I know you have achieved your goal now.

And I am truly happy for you.

And I may not be able to say this to you directly, I hope one day you get to read and understand this.

07292010



Sunday, March 7, 2010

insecure


insecure, a word I have never thought I'd come to accept as a feeling... an undeniably frustrating feeling. and right where and when i thought i would be at my best and happiest, is where i also am the most lowest... most insecure. and who's to blame? i believe i should be, but i believe it may also be just destiny. but yes, we make our own lives and our decisions becomes the cause of our destiny.




i hope to become aware, i hope to escape... i hope to soon depart from this maybe foolish mistake. i hope to gain more courage, to convince myself... how long will it last, help me God to amend

Sunday, February 28, 2010

in my siLent sanctuary



i don't like having someone else not as close as my sisters inside my room...
i used to be okay with having to share a room way back in my early college life and then i went and requested to just have my own one...

now that i'm back to being alone, that feeling just intensified...
i only want a space of my own, a silent sanctuary...
i only want the silence and the space to look at me when i'm dressing up...
i only want my stuffs to witness my insanity, my bed to catch my falls...

there's no reason at all for being selfish about sharing it, maybe i am just selfish, period.

but maybe, just maybe you will understand why...

i am silent... i only have this room to keep me sane, calm, and happy...
in this new place, when he is not comforting me, i only have my silent sanctuary to love me...


Sunday, February 21, 2010

forget me not...

jerome and i decided one day to go shopping...
no not for clothes or shoes and fashion stuffs haha..

we were craving for danggit and that tiny dried bolinao... and that dried squid(?).

on our way home we saw these plants for sale and we were so "love-at-first-site" on this sort of purple/lavender/blue-violet flower plant... hehe

and for P15 we undoubtedly bought it...but it never cross our minds to ask what it was called, and so we were calling it "lavender".

we're just so amaze by the color and the way it grows, it opens up flowers almost every day..or so we think it does hehe...


and i just recently saw this sold also here in sm and found that it was really called "forget me not".

i find it so cute...

maybe that is why it doesn't stop growing flowers..
maybe that is why it doesn't stop making us check on it..
maybe that was why it made us stop and bought it in the first place..

it doesn't want to be forgotten. =)