ALL I WANNA DO IS SLEEP

I went to work late yesterday - it's a combination of not wanting to participate in training and that I really just wanna sleep feeling a lil drowsy for no reasons at all.



Then when I got to the office I was all cheery and all okay during the conference call/Q&A with some analyst. I thought that was great, I thought the day started great and I would all finish up my targets.



But when the major part of my job started, it's like my life ended.

I don't know how to express it but it worries me that I am not doing well on my job or that I am good at it but I'm not doing it. The aim is to qc aroung 20 or more transactions in a day (for 8 hours) but today I am working on 5 deals in five hours! How was I supposed to finish all 40 plus of my target today?!



And yeah not to mention that I am blogging right now because I am so not myself and I wanted it all out - with no one to talk to that might really understand what I feel - so another wasted work time I guess.



And so it's already 7:37 am (my off was suppose to be at 6) and I still have 30plus more deals to go through. I tried to reast on my cutie pillow and tried to think and think.



I ended up realizing that for the past few days I've been wanting to sleep and just sleep or just be in bed or just be with my sister hang out somewhere and be happy. I think that these may really be just signs - that maybe my world is stopping or I am not moving because I don't feel happy about it anymore... that maybe I really need some change... a big scary change.



I keep thinking about it in the past weeks and I get excited but holding it back and now I am a lil worried and scared about it.



And I'm hoping and praying God will guide me through this.



And I wanna cry...



And I wanna sleep...


[Created 01/31/2009 7:30 AM]

Who were you in your last life??? =)

this is cute though it may just be make-believe stuff :)
good luck with yours...
try it in this link http://www.thebigview.com/pastlife/index.html

i can't imagine me being a nun in my past life hehehehe

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Your past life diagnosis:

I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Portugal around the year 700. Your profession was that of a monk (nun), bee-keeper or lone gunman.

Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Inquisitive, inventive, you liked to get to the very bottom of things and to rummage in books. Talent for drama, natural born actor.

The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
The world is full of ill and lonely people. You should help those, who are less fortunate than you are.

New Year’s List Ű

Yeah yeah i know it’s kinda late for this list but hey who cares hehe..

I only have this time and mood to write about my goals, plans, and wantssss so bear with me..

· my first priority would be to lessen if not eliminate debts – yesss utang haha - so i guess spending less and saving more goes here too (so good luck to me)

· so to try and earn more, honey (my sister) and i are planning on continuing our online business (www.techque.multiply.com) – target date, end of January or early February so you guys can drop by the site hehehe

· i just got an email alert that someone added me on Yuwie as a friend and it’s a perfect timing, i haven’t visited the site for a long time now since i joined in hehe so i wanna be serious about it starting this month – like starting now. If you haven’t heard about it just visit (and sign up) here http://r.yuwie.com/nicemae/ - it’s a cool network site i guess coz it pays you to socialize hehehe (well of course there are conditions but why not just enjoy being there, right?).

· i hope to do more of this blogging and writing also, this used to be my medium for unloading overflowing stuffs in this crazy head of mine (and it’s so sad that ever since i started working, i seem to not think anymore.. i mean really think a lot or care a lot hehe or okay maybe no one gets that so i’’m just going to shut up about that)

· going back to cebu - no more explanations

· spend more time with God – including coming back and be active again in the CFC-YFC or SFC community =)

· start investing on residential property (char!) – i mean if we are renting now it’s like just giving money away eh so we plan on getting into those rent-to-own (low cost) condos – hopefully.

· spend more time with friends, stop being so KJ and anti-social!! So please help me my dear friends hehehe

· be nicer...

· be kinder...

· be happier

· eat less...

· exercise more (ngyakkk or start exercising i mean!)

· read more books

· learn to cook more food recipes

· and oh i need to buy those jade green accessories for good luck hehe

hmmmm what else..